Archive for March, 2014

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158 days and then it was all over, as I nervously walked away.

“It’s OKAY to BE WEAK…….We aren’t robots. We live, laugh, love, screw up, start over, do better, blow it, then try again. I do. And there is a blessing to being weak. It offers others the gift of being strong for us. When we allow others to help us, we are giving them a gift. We feel good when we can help others. Why would others be different? So many of you take time to comment, encourage, offer help and you guys make me better each day……We are not alone.” — K. Lamb

Dear readers, take some time to read this:

http://warriorwriters.wordpress.com/2014/03/31/is-your-life-out-of-control-what-can-we-do-when-nothing-is-going-right/

Today is the first day to the rest of my life! It was the last paragraph of that particular chapter of my life. I felt no choice but to walk away. Today was for certain going to be the first day of second-guessing, self-destructive loathing, and everything inside of the kitchen sink.

And then this morning was this blog by Kristen Lamb. e1f57c9

I lived, I loved, and then I screwed it all up. And fell down… all the while putting on the act that I wasn’t hurting, and putting every blame on the other person because THEY were the ones who were hurting me. Not bothering to see that even though I was drinking the poison by the bucket, but when I was done with that daily bucket, I was shooting it also into my arm, causing self-inflicted pain and destruction.

Once I threw away the syringe and dropped the buckets to the ground and refused to take another drop, I thought that I had to wait for whatever was in my system to run its course.

Kristen’s post had given to a me a real hard kick that I needed to release any residual poison from my system.

It is okay to be human. After all, that is who we all are and are nothing else!!

And so it begins RIGHT NOW that new chapter, that new paragraph on a brand new page. Yes it is scary as hell because I am facing a new day without that dose of poison and I don’t know what will happen but if I allow myself to be strong for me and help me, then most assuredly I will be okay.

I will give all the credit today to Kristen. Be sure to check out her entire blog. She’s one of the funniest women that I’ve almost met.

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Ladies & gentlemen, readers and subscribers and followers: here we are.

After much pondering and decision making, I had decided that it was time to unveil a NEW Blogger Award.

I had been seen these other blog awards being tossed around like steam stacks of hot potatoes and I began to wonder what could it possibly be about these awards that they just collect mental dust because honestly, nobody has anything tangible to show for it.

Well….. neither does this award. Nothing tangible. But we will see how far it goes.

Why a new blog award?? 

Good question.

In my personal journey of blogging over this three year and more time span, one cannot help but cross paths with people that will put such a positive influence that it changes your life for the better.

These are the people that should be given the nod for the OMGYA! Award.

People that have given you some major impact, NOT someone who is just your BFF. People that you could say at a certain time in your life you did not know, but now you don’t believe that functioning without them is possible. THAT kind of impact!

And that is how you figure out your nomination.

People who are nominated (and choose to accept the award) are required to do just some of the standard blog award requirements.

They are to write in their own personal blog “their acceptance speech” and provide to their readers the person who gave them the original nomination. And then of course as always, that person will nominate any and all people that have made significant positive changes in their lives by way of their blog(s).

There are NO questions to answer about yourself.
There are NO questions to ask of your nominations.
There is NO limit as to how many nominations you can give. You can give 1 or you can give 10,000.

People who are NOT eligible for this award are the following:

Spouses/significant others
Siblings
Parents
Immediate Family Members of Bloggers and Writers
BFF’s

Spread your love and joy outside of your circles!! People who you appreciate and are grateful for because of their blog.

These are the people that I give this brand new award because I believe that they ARE awesome! They’ve reached down deep and pulled something out of me that has been lifting me up and make me better. They go the distance for me OR they are just needing to know that hey…. I care about you and what you are doing, damnit!!!

I am nominating them with the personal note of appreciation for all that they have done. I am forever grateful.

Congratulations one and all!!

 

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Head Full Of Red
A Redhead’s Guide
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Oldest Daughter & Redheaded Sister
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That Ginger, Anna
Writer B is Me
YOU’RE JUST A DUMBASS

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So I am not going to say too much about this. Instead I am just going to let you go through the quick video at the bottom and just let you watch for yourself.

Any and ALL social stereotypes are shattered, torn, and thrown out the window and left for the birds to prey upon.

This doesn’t end how you think it’s going to end. And yes it is pretty heated as well as epic.

But you won’t see the epic until the very end of the video so watch it all the way through until the end.

And if anyone finds the transcript to this battle, by all means let me know!!

Rap Battle Gets Nasty

 

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“Stupid people are ruining America.”~ Herman Cain

Well for those of you who have come out from underneath their rocks this evening… welcome to life.

You may be noticing many people taking “selfies” and posting them everywhere that they can in the name of cancer awareness and the cure to the disease.

You will also notice that for those female participants, they are doing so without any make-up on their faces whatsoever.

Please excuse these people. They wanted to make sure that the world was aware of cancer as of lately and the sad part is that many people are thinking that if they post selfies that they are fighting the fight against cancer and moving towards a cure.

Ummmmm… what the hell? selfiecancer

These are the kinds of people that I am asking you to forgive and pay no attention to. As these are probably the same population of people that click the “LIKE” button on Facebook in order to cure children with cancer or other fatal diseases or small animals with injuries.

They do not understand that donations and money and science are the keys to a real cure.

They have been the true culprits of people who believe anything and everything that they see and/or read on Facebook or any other social media websites. Simply because its for a cause that they believe is a good cause.

Posting photographs onto the Internet and “LIKES” via Facebook don’t do anything in this world.

These selfies do one thing and one thing only: Show what women look like without make-up. And that’s all I can really say about it because beauty is obviously in the eye of the beholder and it SHOULD be more than skin deep.

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I just helped the remaining living skunk kingdom by posting a photo of a dead one… oh wait. No I DID NOT!

Its like people who want to help animals who are being tortured or abused in one way or another. Posting their bloody, disgusting, near death photographs isn’t doing what these people want to do… posting photographs doesn’t help these animals. It only disgusts people or turns them away completely.

Its amazing how people are missing that.

Awareness? Well yeah in a sense you are making people aware of the situation or problem that is going on. But that’s all you’re doing is showing that there’s an issue that you feel strongly for.

Are you closer to tackling the problem to get rid of it? Absolutely not!!! Wake up, folks!!!!

And now I am being told that there’s yet another awareness group that want to bring light to male testicular cancer. They are doing so by stuffing their “cocks in socks.”

 

Maybe the RED HOT CHILI PEPPERS were on to something, and not just to shock their audiences when they performed wearing no clothes and only a sock over their stuff to keep from being arrested for public indecent exposure.

Go ahead… look it up. I’ll wait.

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But if you wanna help fight the fight against cancer, find some organization to donate to. Find one that is has a good reputation and a place you feel safe to donate towards.

Just do society a favor, keep your dumbass ideas to yourself. They aren’t helping anyone. No cancer patient is feeling better because you posted a selfie onto the Internet.

If awareness is your goal then know this: you are making people are of something, but it is not the thing that you are hoping for!!!!!

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Shannon D.

“If voting changed anything, they’d make it illegal.”~ Emma Goldman

Yesterday it was brought to my attention about this contest by People Magazine.

It is called “PEOPLE’s Real Beauty At Every Age.”

Contestants submit a photograph and then the general public votes.

And for once, this was a contest where voting was allowed that you did NOT have to sign up for anything. You weren’t going to be issued future spam by the contest holder. And it was free to vote.

And you were also allowed to vote as many times as you wanted.

I had seen contestants that had hundreds of thousands of votes.

From what I am understanding a winner will be chosen from each decade (20’s, 30’s, 40’s, 50’s etc.) by People Magazine and will be featured in a future issue.

The only reason why I know about it is because it was posted on Facebook and I went to see what the fuss was about.

This 31 year old woman named Shannon from Idaho Falls, Idaho was being featured in this Facebook post and come to find out that Shannon lives her life to help others every day and gives back to anyone that needs help. So selfless! And not to mention pretty.

But I was told “no flirting!” with her.

We were there to vote. And vote I did. In the 24+ hours that I knew that this contest existed I punched that button and clicked so many times that at last check she was over 9,000 votes.

Unfortunately this afternoon during a time of the day where this had actually slipped my mind that it was going on I had banged the side of my hand really hard against a table and its been throbbing and hurting ever since. Sadly its the same hand I use to control the computer mouse with. All the clicking and refreshing and voting came with a painful price.

But I kept on doing it.

As much as Shannon D. is selfless…. my voting through the agony of my arm hurting was my way of being selfless in return. I did stop and take a break when the pain was getting too bad. But when it would pass, I would go back and vote some more with the boring and tedious process of clicking and refreshing and then clicking again. Then repeating the process many times over.

Shannon thought that the voting ended at midnight Eastern time.. but I am still voting. So who knows when this is going to really end.

If you like what you see and wish to vote for this wonderful person then you can take your chances with the link provided below.

But be warned: I don’t know when they will close the voting. You don’t have to pay for anything or sign up for anything. Just click, vote, and hit refresh and vote as many time as you would like.

As for me and my hand and arm….. we’re defeated and I can no longer withstand the repetitive process any more.

I hope Shannon does well. She is at this point in the top 18 of all contests. I’d like to see her at least get to the top ten.

Vote for Shannon (if you can):

http://specials.people.com/realbeauty/?id=55506

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“It is time to clean the worms off of our boots and march in the grass.” ~ Dambreaker

I think that this will be the only time that I will bring up this topic. Because you even bad press is good press. No matter what you say about a person.

http://www.washingtonpost.com/local/obituaries/fred-phelps-sr-leader-of-westboro-baptist-church-dies-at-84/2014/03/20/a0c5cd30-ae2b-11e3-a49e-76adc9210f19_story.html

Fred Phelps, Sr. the ‘leader’ of the Westboro Baptist Church in Topeka, Kansas has died at the age of 84.

They’ve been able to stir up so much hatred against their group by so many people that there has been many comments that I have heard throughout the years. Most of them about how Westboro needs to burn in hell and what not.

No matter what you think about them and the fact that their beginning leader is now dead and gone, this group will NOT be going anywhere any time soon.

The biggest thing is understanding WHY they are so full of hate.

Westboro Baptist Church was alleging that there was a problem of anonymous homosexual activity that was happening inside of Gage Park. And they wanted the city to do something about it to have it remove the group out of the park because the group wanted it to be a safe and better place for families to gather and children to play and they did not want the homosexuals to “ruin” it for children and families.

Well long story short…. WBC did not get what they wanted. Even with Fred Phelps Sr. and his law degree from Washburn University there in Topeka, WBC lost.

Enter: HATE.

And that’s the way it has been with this group since 1991. It seems as if everyone has been falling prey to them because hate begat hate. If people would have ignored them to begin with as they entered their realm of extreme views of pure hatred, they wouldn’t be as powerful as they are today. If nobody would have cared, it wouldn’t be such a hot topic.

Now the leader is dead. And a few people are NOT holding up their ends. What I mean is that there were people who claimed that they would celebrate and party hard once Fred Phelps Sr. was dead. In fact people have been silent. Perhaps these people came to their human senses and realized that it wasn’t such a great idea. 110110_ShirleyPhelps

But do not count out WBC. The old poison is gone. The new poison is now in. The Phelps family will most likely continue on what they’ve been doing for these years without their leader and probably go even stronger and harder to piss off the world in their ways and fashion.

They are still among us. They are still on this Earth. And they have been given no real reason to stop their hatred for everything and anything, just because their leader is dead.

I suspect that WBC will mourn the death of their leader and then continue business as usual.

Its up to us to actually IGNORE these people. Most of us are not able to fight them as many of them have law degrees from Washburn University just like Fred Sr. They know how to protect themselves and hide behind the First Amendment.

So do what you wanna do about the news of the death, hell… many people thought about picketing one of THEIR funerals.

I cannot be sure, but I thought that I had read something about WBC requesting that nobody picket their funerals, which seems like an extremely absurd request considering all the funerals they’ve picketed themselves. But I cannot confirm they’ve said that.

But think about it though:

http://www.washingtonpost.com/blogs/compost/wp/2014/03/20/better-things-to-do-than-picket-the-fred-phelps-funeral/

Is it something we really wanna do? Waste time to picket a man’s funeral??

So be warned.. Westboro Baptist Church is still alive. Still hating. And not going anywhere.

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Happy International Happiness Day, one and all!!

Well, I’ve started my brand new wardrobe, thanks to the bright idea of going to SXSW Festival this year.

I’m shocked and surprised that even spending well under $100 that I have what I have.

Not to mention the good times and the really freakin’ weird times and there’s no regrets. Only that it ended.

My original plan and intent was to watch five bands. But when you get there too early or when bands are running late, you get that opportunity of hearing other bands that you may find yourself liking.

Such was the case with Jesus Wears Armani, Fear Control, and NANCY SILVA PROJECT.

I’m still on the fence about Eliquate as I don’t normally follow that style and genre of music. And there was nothing that they had in the way of merchandise that I could listen to later at home. All I know is that they are super serious about it all. I saw them at Shiner’s Saloon right before BEAUTIFUL DISTURBANCE and then I saw them performing at the southwest corner in the street of 6th & Neches. The singer saw me listening and nodding my head to the beat and he just up and popped me a high five. I guess I’ll have to find their music online. They are from Santa Cruz, California.

But I’ve seen musical groups from locally here in town to Seattle, Washington to Lafayette, Louisiana to NYC to Venezuela, Mexico, Austria. And met people from Germany, France, Russia, and Australia.

The local bands however are finding out the long and hard way that its beneficial that I am a fan of their music. I become the loudest mouth piece on the planet and scream their glory. And that’s what bands are really wanting. They want those kinds of fans that will talk to other people and spread their message… whatever that message may be.

And I think that’s also how I come to find myself swimming in mostly free swag and merchandise. I took several photographs of what I have but not all of it because it was starting to become a burden to set up everything that I had for photographs.

Just know that this is probably about 1/5 of all that I have. As far as music and miscellaneous …. that’s what I have, but the t-shirts? Not even close. Some are in the dirty laundry. One I am wearing right now. And others are hanging in the closet that I couldn’t find the first sweep through.

I will always get behind the idea that during a show that you get there early. Even if the band that you want to see is playing later. Because you never know if you are going to like something. And it seems like it is always happening to me that I hear something new and I love it. Then I get into it, and then start screaming and waving their banner.

Enjoy your day, everybody!!

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